The Homesickness ("Extraterrestrial Sickness")

Higher dimensional beings commonly experience a syndrome called by my family "extraterrestrial sickness" or "Frequency Dissonance Syndrome" whenever they bodily enter a lower dimensional environment without any dimensional protection. It's what happens when one's body is at a lower frequency than one's mind, resulting in physical and psychological illness over time.

This problem affects starseeds on Earth, and I would like to discuss this from the perspective of having been one. In my case, I just called it "The Homesickness", because that is the primary emotion I experienced. But here is how it was for me. Maybe you'll find some comfort in my story and realize, you're not alone. It happens to everyone.

The Homesickness

One of the hardest experiences of being a starseed on Earth, even prior to being aware of being one, was the unavoidable feeling of "I do not belong". It followed me throughout my entire life. From the moment I came into the world and every moment thereafter. I used to think it was just some problem I had about not being quite normal, but eventually I came to realize it was a symptom of a much larger feeling of deep homesickness for a place I couldn't remember.

Many times, when upset, I would cry "I want to go home!" as I sat in my home. Sometimes, I would wake with a deep longing that would crush my heart to feel. Sometimes, I could feel the distance between where I was and where I felt I was supposed to be (it was a very long distance). And yet, I had no idea where this "home" I so sought was. Just that it wasn't "here", wherever that was at the time.

Physical ailments at first came in the form of frequent illness as a child and allergies. Primarily I was afflicted with depression that occasionally cleared whenever I was focusing on meditation or creating or martial arts. It led me to believe I had bipolar disorder. I didn't. What was happening was I would have a build up of low-vibrational energy in my body. This led to depression. Periodically my family and my soul, via my artistic or meditative practice, would clear that debris away. Suddenly I'd be up at my true vibration, which is that of passion, focus, and general joy. Then the debris would build again. You can see how this looks like bipolar disorder.

What I was experiencing was the difference between the frequency of my mind, which as a starseed meant it was an ET mind, and the frequency of my Earth body. However, unlike an ET experiencing the same issues, the physical ailments were non-lethal and the psychological ailments could not destroy my Earth body. (This is one of the superpowers of the Earth body. It does not destroy itself from emotions alone. It's immune to lethal emotional damage.) It was more like having chronic back pain as opposed to strokes and heart attacks.

The only feasible way to solve this dilemma was to upgrade the physical form. This is possible and precisely what "ascension" is all about. It's why you go through that process. Ascension is the integration of the soul with the physical self, and for that to occur, the physical self must be upgraded to match the soul's desired level of integration. All cells, DNA sequences, mental and emotional bodies, even the astral body must undergo this upgrading process. It's lengthy and if you knew what it would be like beforehand, you'd probably never do it. Which is likely why it tends to occur slowly over time, and usually by surprise to the physical self. But it's worth it, and the process is sometimes delightfully strange.

So, the physical self is upgraded over time via expanding your consciousness, and the ailments begin to go away. You get sick less often. You have a better metabolic balance. Even things like allergies can go away spontaneously. It's all to do with the vibrational level of your physical self. The feeling homesickness dials way back. It's always there, but it becomes less of a chronic pain and more an intermittent one. All of this starts making it easier to have a better time while on Earth, because you're not in as much existential pain. You start feeling more "yourself", and that improves your mood and perspective which improves your manifestation ability and that also makes life better.

Finally, the yo-yo effect of too much build up of low-vibrational energy in your system ceases to occur. You stop accumulating that debris so easily, because you establish better energetic boundaries as well as having healthier thoughts. You're better able to clear yourself on a daily basis, which makes for better emotional and mental hygiene. This eliminates the depression along with the resulting highs. You are instead balanced.

The not remembering was hard to get past--not the failure to remember part, but how my awareness of it made me feel. In some ways, I felt a bit sad for myself. Because it felt like I had dementia, and my experiences with people having that condition are not positive. When I first started talking to my family, I used to joke to myself about being an ET with severe dementia. Like I was some old lady who kept going, "It's so nice to meet you. What's your name?" to her own children every other day, and they had to humor their mother because she didn't know any better. A bit self-deprecating, I admit to that. This was something I had to get over by learning to love myself for it anyway.

Further, they were never humoring me and never felt like "poor old mum". Not at all. They all know this is what happens, and they'd remind me that they didn't choose to take that challenge due to the difficulty level but I did. Not just that I chose that difficulty level, but I beat the game by remembering them in spite of the severe conditions. I did what my environment said I could not do.

That's something to remember if you're an aware starseed out there. You chose nightmare level reality, and your family is in awe of you beating nightmare level. Because if you are aware of who you are as a soul, you have beat the game. No further action required. You beat the 3D Earth Matrix. Congratulations!

I thank you for your time. Adiamas.

​--Kyriel