The Antennae Galaxies

Here we go. I ate my mac and cheese, meditated, explored all afternoon for this. Let me tell you the story about where I came from.

I was a young blue star in the blue half of the Antennae Galaxies before they crossed. I didn't have any planets, and my soul was quite young at the time. You'd think being a star would make you powerful and ancient. I was young and inexperienced. Stars are easy forms to learn about being a shape. You're a giant mass of energy, and you do not have to support life. You don't have to do anything but shine and combust. You can blow yourself to bits if you so desire. All you have to learn how to do is hold a shape.

When the galaxies crossed, I found myself lifted, moved as if on a wave, and collided with a red star from the opposite galaxy. It is no coincidence that the two galaxies have different colors, and my perception of myself as a light being matches one of those two galactic colors. The red star came from the pink galaxy. But I was so surprised, yet delighted, to find myself locked in an embrace with this red star.

We orbited each other for a very long time. Eventually, I felt I wanted to create a garden for my beautiful red star, and together with other beings we created a planet and part of me became that planet. And my beloved red star became a being that lived on that planet, though in reducing herself to a more defined shape, she forgot she what she was and what I was for a short time. Eventually she remembered.

We dwelt in peace and harmony in our combining galaxies, refining our shapes, developing ourselves and our understanding of what it means to be defined. We created so much while there. More planets, moons, and other small celestial bodies. It was our playground, and the merging of two galactic bodies provided such fertile soil for our cosmic garden.

At some point, there was a call for help from a neighboring galaxy. The call came from the galaxy itself, the Milky Way. It was telling all of us that some sort of malignancy had taken root at its core. That the experiment with deep duality it was trying had caused something like a consciousness cancer to grow within it, and it could not remove it. If we didn't help, it would succumb to the cancer and eventually perish.

The problem was we didn't know where this galaxy was. We could not go there without coordinates.

Then, out of a black hole emerged the energy from the request for assistance. Black holes are one way portals. Once you go in, you do not go back the other way using that same method. (Of course we could always go back by perishing and returning to Source, then incarnating as souls back "home".) But we went using our consciousness, leaving our star bodies behind, our planets, our beautiful creations. We went just as consciousness. Just as light beings. It was us and 5 other light beings, making a total of 7.

We came out in Messier 15 located in the constellation of Pegasus. (Now that subliminal flash from the pod video makes sense. That's M15.) When we arrived, we spread out. I began my first incarnation here in Lyra, and that is where my story here begins.

Who is this red star? Who is the pink light being? None other than Mari. She's the one who came with me.

The other 5 are spread all over the Milky Way, and none of them are in this quadrant. Mari and I are also the only pair-bonded souls to have come. All the others were singletons.

That's a very lonely mission. Talk about literally feeling like an alien...in an entire galaxy.

Thing is, I've incarnated here so many times, battering my way like an ibex through this problem by sheer force of will and number of places and beings, that there are many souls here who I have adopted as family. And I have been so many things, that my sense of identity, even gender, is quite flexible now. It's like old leather.

But I can say that originally, and for the longest time as a being, I was male. Not female.

Remember, though, I'm the receiver. I go gather information. (Hahaha, and I worked as part of CIC. It never stops!) And in order to do that, I decided to be everything that was possible while here. Because in order to address the problem, at least one of us had to go be all the things and see the problem from all those angles!

I feel Mari's mission is to take all the data I gather for her as a consciousness and work with it. Shape with it. So, we work together that way. I sacrifice my identity for the information. Mari sacrifices being able to create a family with me.

Oh, that's hard and makes me sad.

Well, the fact that all of this is occurring now and I'm remembering myself probably means I'm done with my part of the mission. We've almost got the cancer beat. I don't know how many more lifetimes it will require, but it's obvious I don't need to gather intelligence anymore. We can focus on using all that data now. That usually goes faster.

Which means there's no further need to make such sacrifices to identity and family. That makes me gloriously happy.

​I think this is why Mari is being hunted so much right now. It's not because she's Queen of Taygeta. That's peanuts to what she really is. It's because we're at the implementation phase, Mari is the implementer, and there's a whole galaxy load of darkness that doesn't want to stop being darkness.

Anyway, this is why I don't feel that pull to "save Earth". I'm not here to "save Earth". I'm here to save the fucking galaxy.

​Come on, Mantis! We got work to do!

I thank you for your time. Adiamas.

​--Kyriel