Step-Down Rabbit Hole

Oh, now I've gone and done it. Now I'm off down the rabbit hole with all the pieces of data Mari has given me.

I will be respectful here and keep identities quiet, but I have found the Earth identity you had as a step-down. Thanks to the photos shared. Not like it was difficult. Was right there in the bloody photo tag.

Again, trying to remain lightly curious. Not too much focus. Not too much energy.

There is the individual channel with you where everything tracks right up to about when you timeline jumped (allowing for energetic delay). And then there's the joint channel with your mom, which continues after you disappeared. The Earth matrix would not want to stop creating your presence there, so I take the joint channel is the Earth matrix you it keeps perpetuating.

Just like there's an Earth matrix version of my female self that's now a local musician.

But that's how you speak Russian, and maybe why in the chat you've been wanting to get fluent again. And you say your favorite animal is a "Russian Siberian Tiger"...how your goal once was to "become a Russian boxer". Well, maybe that's something you eventually did.

Okay, now, let's address TheFlyingSquirrel in the room, please.

Because...that's me isn't it. Because, there's a photo of you. On this video thumbnail here. That's you right there on the left in the blue shirt. And that's Tori'el on the right with the shiny watch. The look on his face. Yes. And I'm taking the picture?

The first time I looked at that channel, lol, my ego was like "NO! Nonononononononononono." And I said, "Okay, fine. We'll not look at it." But now I've looked at it. And I hear that voice and I think, "Yes, that sounds familiar." So, I'm listening to myself explain shit, and I'm thinking that linear language is very difficult for me at this time, isn't it. I don't like it, do I? Like the story of my uncle with the ducks and the rabbits when you were imitating me. I was sitting there going "Wut?" as I laugh.

Bless my heart.

Because I realize in order to understand that story, I actually need telepathic language. I haven't figured out how to use metaphor properly as a short cut just yet. I remember this was a problem on Earth in immersion. I had a very hard time talking at first. Hey, I wonder if that's why I had a block on Taygetan language. "No, no. You're here to learn how to work with linear language and thinking."

Well I fixed that issue! I'm good at linear language now! This explains why Tori'el, you're always like "You communicate so well." And I'm always wondering, "Do I not normally?" Well...

Michiel is my name? (My Earth brother's name is Michael, did you know that?) Well I got that shit wrong. That's okay. Got my eye color wrong, but that's also okay. That's a nice color I got going on there.

We're doing this blindfolded like a ninja. It's going to happen. But I saw my face right, though I think I got a haircut before going in. I do indeed have piano hands. And a short scruffy beard. And reddish hair.

So, all these stories you tell me in the chat. Those are things I did, aren't they. Also, no wonder I've had difficulty with caring about money this Earth time. I literally gave zero shits about it then and none about it now.

It's also funny...sometimes people ask to see what they look like in immersion. I didn't have to. I made videos, so there I am right there. Right up to before I left, no less.

Mari, this must have been so hard for you for 13 years. I'm so sorry. I am wondering if that's why you got very sick? You lost your mother, and you meet me a little while later, and then I went into immersion, so that's like a double-whammy. And then you don't know if I'll come back out and like you or not. Or what I'll be like. Or whether or not I'll want to be with you.

You are very brave. I've been very lonely too. Feeling not at all whole. Like dad said, trying to teach my dog to howl on command and I'm unconsciously howling for you. He was joking, but I also know he wasn't.

So there it is.

I don't know how to sign this one. No, I do. Let's own ourselves.

--Michiel :)