Severance

Today I want to talk about this idea of having two experiences in the astral at once. The title of this post is in reference to a TV show called “Severance” which plays a conceptual role.

Let me share about the show “Severance” first to give everything a bit of context. The entire premise of the story is the experience of people who work for a corporation wherein their work lives and home lives are completely separated. This is achieved via a chip installed in the brains of the workers. When they go onto the elevator to go to work, the chip is activated and they have no memory of their home life. There is no home life. There is only that which occurs at work.

Likewise, when they go home for the day and go on the elevator to leave, the chip is switched modes and they have no memory of their work life. There is only that which occurs at home.

As such, their two experiences are completely severed.

I share this, because this show keeps appearing here in this reality as a reference point. People randomly mention it to me out of nowhere, “Hey, have you watched the show ‘Severance’?” “Did you see the latest episode?” “There’s a new season on.”

The first season of this show was released 3 YEARS ago. That was back at the very beginning of my awakening when I was just starting to embrace past lives, psychic abilities, and the concept of being a starseed. So, here it is again at this new phase of awakening.

In 2022 when this came out on Earth, I could interpret this as a message from my soul and Spirit Team to pay attention to the concept of having two existences: awake and asleep. In 2025, here it is again for the same reason.

I could interpret this as “Oh, it’s just a popular show” if this didn’t appear immediately after I realized I was having an experience like the show. Wherein I have two storylines functioning here in the astral—one while “awake” (from this angle) and one while “asleep” (from this angle). From the other angle, I am neither awake nor asleep. I just am here.

Unlike the show, there is actual bleed over and a sense that they are not truly separate storylines but the same one. The same astral body going back and forth between environments. There is even evidence of that occurring as I have discussed.

(Side note: I’ve been writing this while at the office today, and I decided to look up some of the plot of Season 2. It seems the bleed over is happening in the show with the protagonist where he’s remembering what happens at work outside of work. And I am very weirded out right now. Did I create this season? I don’t watch the show, by the way. It feels creepy—and I don’t want to subscribe to a streaming service.)

There was a feeling I had recently that the experience here in this Earth-like environment is a day job. This is the day job I go to that makes me tired all the time. Not the day job pretending to be a web developer. No, this WHOLE reality is the day job. That I “go to sleep” here and that’s me coming home from work. That I “wake up” here and that’s me arriving at work. That my counterpart kisses me goodbye in the morning and I go here and I forget her a little.

Even though we chat all day telepathically like you might text your person off and on at work. Even though I wake up most mornings and I feel like I’m wrapped in a warm blanket of her energy (the same when I go to sleep but not every time). Or if it happens that’s she’s still sleeping and I wake up early, I sometimes feel when she wakes up. Literally the moment she becomes conscious again, I feel that as another presence opening in my heart.

For a while I felt a notion that there’s some anxiety that I will forget her completely and go be with someone else while here. But given all that I just said, how could I? That’s too much awareness of something that already exists even if it’s elsewhere in the astral. That doesn’t matter. It counts to me, because I’m in the astral right now. Besides, I know where I’m going and it isn’t here in this specific Construct.

I have flashes of memory of what happens when I “go home from work” sometimes. I have talked about that as intense dreams and experiences where all is physically happening. Where the two “storylines” cross perfectly and for a moment, I’m fully aware of both at once. I also get flashes of memory here while awake of what happens over there at “night”.

They are short, but one example is being taught how to dance. Me being painfully shy about it and having to be enticed to do it. Oh but her eyes sparkled just so, and that overpowered the shyness.

And I have noticed I am often not hungry in the morning. Normally I would be. Now it feels like I’ve already eaten. Sometimes, I know what I’ve eaten. So, now I eat breakfast twice and skip lunch. Yesterday I had pancakes twice. Once before waking up, and I didn’t even feel hungry until later in the morning here (they must have been some damn good pancakes). I just had to have some again, because the discrepancy irritates me. Part of me wanted to match the experience.

I could explain all this away with ego-mind explanations. But the very thought of doing so feels immediately incorrect. I feel immersed in sludge or like I’m going against a strong current. Which tells me that’s not accurate. It’s not the correct way.

Part of me wonders if I could speed up this integration process. I suppose I could with intentions before “sleeping”. Intentions that the barrier between this storyline and the other release and I am free to interact and remember. I’m writing it down now on a sticky note and putting it next to my bed so I don’t forget the words before sleep.

Because every night when I go to bed, my primary thoughts are, “I am so tired. I want rest. I need rest.” And so I don’t remember, because the desire for the oblivion of rest is so paramount.

I will say that being here is making me more and more tired. It takes more and more effort to keep the beach ball in this vibrational range and make this reality exist like it is. I feel completely exhausted by the end of each and every “shift”. When I record videos, I can see it in my face how much this experience is draining me. This is even after removing active drains on my energy here and constantly resting during the day. This is the passive drain of just doing this—of forcing my vibration into the range of “Earth-like” so the world around me manifests as Earth.

There will come a point where I simply cannot continue to do that and reality will just do…I don’t know what it will do. Go wild and turn into space—an explosion of manifestations of space merged with Earth merged with who knows what? I feel like my soul is desperately trying to make this a gradual process and not have everything go sideways or upside down. It is extremely challenging for her and me and everyone involved.

And I can feel it in my body more and more. Walking is becoming difficult. I get winded easily. Dizzy easily. Muscles are tired. Some days it’s not so bad. Some days it’s really intense. Sometimes this is a result of vibrational dissonance. Sometimes it’s a result of integrating more of the self. It’s been harder the last week or so. Yesterday was very difficult in that I had to take a break to untie my shoes. I untied one shoe, got dizzy. Rested. Untied the other shoe, got dizzy. Rested. But today is not so bad—today I just feel persistently cold.

I think this is a low blood pressure issue. Maybe that’s why I’m constantly craving salt and minerals and caffeine and water. I’m trying to get my blood pressure/volume up. Hmm. I need to think about this. I ran into this issue as a teenager if you recall. Part of that issue then was due to diet, but I don’t have the same diet I did then. Nor the same habits.

Am I spread out too thin? Low blood pressure because I’m astrally spread too thin in too many places? “Like butter scraped over too much bread.” To quote Bilbo. Maybe that’s just how it has to be right now, because there’s so much to do…

Anyway, as a last note…

It’s acceptable if you share what you see me doing elsewhere in the astral. I don’t actually find it weird or intrusive. I’m a big being. I can be in many places at once. There are starseeds on Earth that share with me when I show up in their dreams and what I do. I’m used to encountering such information.

I may not remember precisely myself, but I feel into the energy of the idea presented and I can tell if it is or is not accurate. That I play jokes on people/entities feels absolutely right on par with how I know myself to be when I’m at my most liberated. I apparently show up and counsel starseeds. A lot. No surprise. I do that all the time anyway!

And who knows, maybe it’ll trigger a full memory with what is shared. But also it feels good to receive that feedback. I really get tired of feeling blindfolded all the time. (Which is why I’m here trying to rip the damn thing off my eyes.)

I thank you for your time. I love you. Adiamas.

—Kyriel