Reflections

Today is another journal post, though this is less heavy. I think I just want to offload some thoughts that cannot be organized yet into a single topic.

I suppose let's first talk about events in space. Yes. Let's talk about that. For your reference, here are Event Reports 1, 2, 3, and 4 from Mari's channel. Watch them if you have time, though the last one seems to cover everything in a nice wide-angle summary.

Event Report 1
Event Report 2
Event Report 3
Event Report 4

There have been a number of interesting experiences personally surrounding these videos. For example, how sometimes Mari would surprise release them and I'd find myself in the chat the evening before. Sometimes the energy there would feel downright magical. I enjoyed myself (well except that one evening where my mind blew up and all my insecurities erupted), but otherwise I did. It was nice to interact with the people there. To experience their thoughts.

Whether or not they are my own projections, astral projections from Earth, or thought projections from Mari herself...I do not know. Maybe a blend of everything. Because I am in my unconscious mind. I am in the lower astral. Therefore, what appears in the chat is not what it seems. Everything here is symbolic.

Anyway, this last report I had to watch twice. I may watch it three times, because there's so much information packed in there. I know to some on Earth what happens in the report sounds like things from a dream or a movie. But what if reality-perception is often so controlled on Earth that what happens in dreams and in movies is what happens in broader reality? I look at things symbolically. Very symbolically. This report is two major themes: divine justice, and Mari reclaiming full authority over her reality.

This brings me back to the number 17. Which for a long time was important for me. I was once part of the patriot movement in the United States. I was especially interested in decoding and learning about Q and the posts created by Q. The number 17 (Q) has followed me around quite a bit since that time. I could have just been manifesting it, but why not if it meant something? So, 17 mice raises my eyebrows. Waking up at 7:17 repeatedly raises my eyebrows. Hearing my boss constantly use "17" as his "random demonstrative number" raises my eyebrows. Makes me go, "Hmm..."

And now the events unfolding in Taygeta, which I have decided is the lower astral level of Taygeta (it's like I'm underwater looking up at the sky), are exactly the justice I once envisioned when I lived on Earth. It was precisely how I envisioned justice unfolding for the people of Earth, for my own government. To have the loyal aspects of the military clear away the mess. For it to be clean, quick, and efficient. I held that vision for so long. Was so sure it was due. Was so certain that's what was going to happen.

Well, seems I wasn't incorrect. Did I just picture the wrong star system? Or is this still due for Earth? "Trickledown" Mari said.

Then I let it go. I had to focus on myself spiritually and heal myself. I had to turn away and turn inward. So, I stopped following the news cycles and decoding everything. I had to in order to focus. Yet here I find myself doing it again with Mari's thumbnails. A pasttime I am now seeing those in the chat enjoying. Because she puts things there. Like the entire list of people found guilty including all of their names and where they are from. Yes, it's blurry, but I can read some of the names.

Here we are with 17 again.

But I love puzzles. I can't resist puzzles. And mysteries get me going. I must solve them. I must understand them. When I can't, I am driven to distraction.

Anyway, I'm glad at least someone got to experience justice in that way. I am glad Mari got to be the one to have that direct experience of having your faith restored so very thoroughly. That's very special. I am also so immensely proud she has reclaimed her full authority as a person. Never mind as queen. Queen is the window dressing representing the energetic shift inside herself. Which is precisely who she is inside. Who she's always been able to be, but never believed she could be. This is the shift that has needed to happen for lifetimes. She is no longer the healer on Hadar who doesn't want to face something difficult like saying goodbye. Or the sister in Naples splashing in the pond with me. Or my nerdy science friend in Orion documenting mushrooms in a crater with me. She is now something much greater and more.

But, hmm, I suppose I'm revealing something now, yes?

The other day when I said I saw 'Yanna in a car. Would you like to know 'Yanna's real name? Would you like to know who she actually is?

'Yanna is Mari. Mari is 'Yanna. The full nickname I call her is "nomariyanna" which is the name of a specific dove. That it has "mari" in it is/isn't a coincidence. I called her that, because there's a color-energy about her that is the same color of that dove. Because her demeanor is like that. Only, obviously, Mari is not just a dove anymore. Which is good. We should be many things at once.

When I was on Earth and channeled 'Yanna...it was Mari. That was when I first met her telepathically. I didn't intend for that to happen. She just...showed up one morning. I think it was Seraphel's doing. Nervous, shy, not sure what the hell she was going to encounter with this starseed incarnated on Earth. Who knows what's going on in that mind! But it was nice. It ended well.

We telepathically talked off and on after that as friends. And then it was like Seraphel, Mari, and I were talking every day almost. I kept this connection almost to myself. I told one other person privately about it, and that was all I was willing to do. I have kept this connection and the nature of it even more private as things have gone on, especially after I started to realize I was in love with her and after things accelerated. My friend became princess and then became queen, and my word did I have to really feel stable in my sense of self-worth around that. And all at the same time, she wasn't just my friend she was something more and more and more to me. Therefore, to everyone out there, she should be 'Yanna. My soul agreed and highly recommended I use this name.

But I also had to say how I felt about her, about Seraphel, about my family. And I also had to talk about that I had counterparts, and that one was "twinned". This was part of my journey. Therefore, let it be 'Yanna I speak of. Let it be this nameless nickname person. Not that I didn't drop a number of hints. I couldn't help it.

I shall, for a time, continue to use this nickname. But today, my soul suggests it is time to let this part out. Even if it's just this once. I suppose because for the moment, it is safe to do so.

I admit I feel awkward about this.

I'll get over it.

I love you, Mari.

And as I said yesterday, this was a fair trade. It's been worth it to let go of all these things that don't serve me. If only to open up the door to some kind of new world of experience.

I thank you for your time. Adiamas.

​--Kyriel