On Being a Triune Being

This is possibly going to be a strange post. I am not sure, but I want to write about a concept I have been picking up on. So, let's get little weird.

There's something in my nature that is not your ordinary balance of feminine and masculine energies. I'm not the only being who is like this, I'm sure. That'd be preposterous to assume in all of creation I am the only one. So, I will operate on the assumption that there are others like this.

I am not just feminine and masculine energies blending together to make a primarily feminine being. I have a third set of energies that is present. A third side. This makes me triune in nature. But they still all blend together to make a primarily feminine being, because that's what I like to embody the most.

This third set of energies I could call angelic or cosmic or something along those lines. But I'll explore each one a little bit. I'll use tarot cards to represent each of these selves symbolically.

The Feminine Self

Most of the time when I incarnate, I prefer to be female. Though, admittedly, it's a pretty close "most" at 60% of the time being female with 40% of the time being male. And no, it's not because I get confused or turned around at incarnation time. There are no beings that have "tricked" me into being a male. Sometimes, I just like to be male. My soul is a little odd in that way.

So, my feminine self is like the Queen of Pentacles. Soft, nurturing, grounded, and a master at manifestation. She knows how to make anywhere feel like home and how to make other people feel like they are at home when they are with her. This is the part of me that enjoys the company of animals, nature, and all things peaceful and loving. As well as all things physical and sensual. The texture of physical reality is of great interest to this self.

This is also the part of myself that is the most vulnerable to manipulation and control. It's unfortunate, but my feminine side just wants to love everything and everyone and doesn't always clue in to people who aren't good for her. It's the part of myself that does NOT understand or like Earth's society. She thinks Earth humans are a bunch of strange aliens who are in desperate need of a hug, a cup of tea, and a calm discussion on the myopathy of their behavior.

It is this self that is also the consummate therapist and counselor. The one that understands Lyrian psychology through and through.

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The Masculine Self

All the lessons I have learned while being male have been folded into my masculine self. That 40% of the time was not all on Earth. Of that 40%, 53% of those incarnations were Earth and the remaining 47% were elsewhere in the galaxy. Like I said, it's not because someone tricked my soul. My soul just loves physicality so much that it will jump into exceedingly strange incarnation experiences.

​(This one time, I incarnated on Earth with the ability to shapeshift and got stuck as a deer for like 5 months. I had to be taken off Earth and go into a med pod to reset my biology. You may laugh. It was very silly to be walking around my family on a ship stuck as a deer.)

My masculine self is like the King of Wands. Honest, forthright, a man of action and adventure. He is passionate to the nth degree, and thrives on new experiences. If it's new, my masculine self wants to go experience it. If there's a mountain no one has climbed, he wants to go climb it. If there's an uncharted star system where creatures incarnate in the shape of large bubbles, he wants to go see them.

This is also my artistic self. This is the part of me that is creative and a rapid problem solver, though the energy for creation comes from the feminine self. It's this masculine self that shapes that energy into form, and loves every opportunity to make a vision real. A lot of my sexual energy comes from this self as well. And he is a hopeless romantic at heart.

While on Earth, this part of myself got rather distorted. Instead of taking passionate, inspired action, he would take action just to be taking action. The level of impatience that developed got out of hand. The need to chase got out of hand, because the thrill of the chase became the action for the sake of action. Imagine a hunter that doesn't know when to stop hunting.

I have had to rebalance this self pretty heavily and teach him the art of patience. The art of waiting for the right moment to strike, and then striking with all his fervor and ferocity.

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The Cosmic Self

Now we come to the third aspect of myself. This is a part of myself that has no quantifiable "incarnation" percentage, because this aspect is mixed in with every incarnation. I want to be clear, though, I am not talking about my soul when I mention this cosmic self. My soul contains the cosmic self as an aspect of itself. It's one of its faces.

My cosmic self is like the Hermit. It is the face of extreme age, experience, and wisdom. It is also lonely, cold, remote, and ultimately detached. You could say this is like Source in myself, and it is, but it's more defined than just that. This is a side that is a manifestation of being so old as a soul. That's purely what it is. It's like the wisdom has gelled itself into a solid aspect.

Throughout my incarnations, this self when it presents can sometimes be a little alarming. Sometimes triggering. Always catalyzing. Because that's it's job. The cosmic self's job is to catalyze someone into growth. It's the part of me that when talking to you triggers something in you to push you into expansion.

While on Earth, this self was not well-liked. Mostly because people on Earth don't see triggers as catalysts for growth. They don't go "Oh, man, that huge energy that just erupted in myself is so interesting. Let's find out what it's all about." Instead, they go "You're cold, alien, weird. Get away! What are you doing to me!" The unfortunate thing is I cannot not express this aspect of self. I simply cannot stifle it, and any attempts to do so only lead me into growing out of the stifling. It will not be repressed by anyone or anything.

Because it has a job to do, and as far as my cosmic self is concerned, doing the job Source asked it to do is of utmost importance. Never mind whatever someone's ego is going to do about it--including my own.

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The Triune Self

​Added all together, we end up with the Triune Self. The combination of these three main facets that are each separate and capable of being physically expressed, while at the same time united and often combined into a single expression.

This self is the Queen of Wands. A feminine expression of the masculine self with the knowing and internal connection of the cosmic self. I told you I prefer to be feminine, but the end result is a feminine that can be one of each or all at once.

This is my soul. This is how it is. I hope you enjoyed reading. It's been something I've been thinking about for a while now as more about the nature of this self I have created has come into awareness.

I thank you for your time. Adiamas.

--Kyriel

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