Mission to Earth: Why Did I Go?

Every soul has their reasons for incarnating on Earth. Everyone's established personal goals are also different for each lifetime, and these goals can even change throughout your lifetime. Sure, you go in with a general idea of what you want to do, but souls love shiny things just like their incarnated selves do. So, sometimes you change your mind midway through and go "No, I want to do this instead!"

I cannot give you every single reason my soul decided to incarnate on Earth, because I've incarnated there approximately 238 times in an Earth human body, 16 times in a high-density body, and visited 14 times in an stellar Lyrian body. That's a total of 268 lifetimes with many factor more reasons for going again and again and again. Needless to say, my soul really loves Earth. Really loves it. It's been home for a good 30,000+ years, and like I said in a recent post, I was involved in its initial set up as a school.

I've incarnated in a lot of places. Lyra, Orion, Sirius, Venus, Hadar, Draco. I've visited/lived in a lot of places. Taygeta, Alcyone, Merope, Atlas, Aldebaran, Arcturus, Andromeda. The Johnny Cash song "I've Been Everywhere" could easily be rewritten with star systems and planets and it would be completely accurate. (Maybe some day I will do this.)

But Earth holds the highest amount of energy expended as a soul seconded only by Orion. Many of the experiences in Orion were repeated on Earth, which may account for the high amount of energetic investment. There were many wounds to heal from there. I tell you, Orion is not a joke. It is a tough place to incarnate, especially if you choose the time period when we were blowing each other to pieces. Yet, I made my closest soul bonds there. The people I call family and friends today are those same souls who were with me in Orion. Some of them have even taken up their same roles from those lifetimes. (I wonder if they're aware of this.) Others became my guides for this lifetime and others. I have a great respect for any soul who went through the Orion gauntlet. Those are some tough cookies. Don't mess with them!

However, I can give you many general reasons for the repeated incarnations. I can tell you why my soul loves Earth. I can also tell you my goals for this particular lifetime.

General Reasons

Perfectionism.

I will own up to it now. I am a perfectionist. My soul is a perfectionist. It is only this lifetime that I was finally able to embrace the 80/20 rule, and that was after much arguing with my own soul over a particular matter. Up until that point, my soul wanted everything to be perfect. It wanted to be perfect itself. It wanted to create the perfect genetic mixture to create the perfect physically embodied light being. (I think this is why the Swaruu souls and I get along so well. We have the same addiction.)

My soul's dream was to make a physically incarnated being that was capable of holding such a high frequency that it would be like an archangelic-level light being was walking around in a Lyrian body. Have we achieved this? Well, you meet me and tell me what you think. I think we've done a fine job, personally.

What better way to do this than to 1) build the Earth school, 2) conquer the fuck out of it, 3) go back and conquer the fuck out of it again and again and again.

Like, dude, soul. Chill out. I actually did get into a severe argument with my soul about it wanting to constantly come back to Earth at the expense of not being with the souls it loves the most. I forced my soul to make a choice: your perfectionistic tendencies or your soul family. You can't have both the way you're going. It got...heated. And it's not like your soul can get mad and leave; not when you've become the embodiment of your soul already and realized that. So, we had to have it out with ourselves.

​Eventually, my soul realized that the better thing to do would be to surrender this obsession it had. 80/20 rule. Get 80% of the way to completion and Source will meet you the remaining 20% of the way. And that remaining 20% will end up more amazing than you could ever have planned. So always leave room for Source to work some magic for you. That's the 80/20 rule.

Love of the challenge itself.

There is a reason why I have a visceral reaction to the idea of a survival challenge. Why I love camping. Why I love when the weather turns bad while camping and we have to evacuate. It's like a game of "how fast can we dismantle the campsite". I come out of it soaked to the bone, a little scared because the situation got dangerous, but I can feel my soul going "WOO HOO! THAT WAS FUN! Let's do it again."

That's the incarnated of version of my soul every Earth lifetime. That's what my soul does every time it completes a lifetime. It thinks Earth is like a roller coaster ride. The best one there could ever be.

Well, until possibly recently. Recent lifetimes have been not so fun. Watching people die to mustard gas in the trenches of France was not fun. I think that was the lifetime my soul decided it was getting tired of Earth. But we had loose ends to tie up.

Loose ends.

Speaking of. You don't incarnate halfway around the galaxy and not have a bunch of dangling loose ends everywhere. From what my soul has told me, it has taken me 47 Earth lifetimes to tie up loose ends. Particularly galactic loose ends. Those are actually harder to deal with than Earth loose ends. Earth loose ends we can handle in a couple of lifetimes. Galactic issues? That's a bigger job, usually because there are many ancient souls involved.

Love of the planet itself.

Earth is actually a really beautiful planet. It has every biome you could desire on a world, and it's a water world. And it can host a giant soup of frequency ranges, which means you're not likely to get bored for quite a long time. It's just a buffet of soul experiences. My soul, particularly the Alpha Draco facet, sees Earth as the crown jewel of the galaxy. I've actually felt that part of me get angry when someone insults the planet's beauty or the nature of Earth humanity as a whole. It takes great umbrage at humans being blamed for hurting the Earth, when I know humans actually love their planet very deeply and want to do right by it. They often do not know how best to express that love due to separation, veil of forgetfulness, and interfering programming.

But I tell you, Earth humans, left to their own devices and with time and infinite resources, would turn the planet into a paradise garden. They are not the type of people who particularly love an unkempt nature park. They like their nature a little bit manicured with picked out areas of pure wilderness in between. They would want the mountains to remain wild and mysterious, but their towns and cities to look neat, orderly, and full of well-appointed flowers and trees. They want to live symbiotically with the planet, but do not know how with technology (because the technology that gets developed is garbage and hurts the planet). They know how to do it without technology no problem, but blending the two elements is something they need a little help in figuring out.

Lifetime Goals

Personal healing.

This is part of tying up loose ends. When you're playing the survival game for a long time, you tend to end up with some serious energetic blockages, particularly around the heart. Your guard is up constantly, and sometimes you end up blocking yourself off from receiving all the wonderful things your soul and Source want to just give to you because you exist. And that's another blockage. Realizing you deserve to have abundance and love heaped on you just because you're you!

This was a specific personal healing that needed to occur this lifetime, and it had to be completed on Earth. Or at least, 80% of it needed to be done on Earth. The remaining 20% could happen anywhere.

Family healing.

I have alluded to this a couple of times in the last batch of posts. When you live in a holistic society where everything is provided for you, sometimes you forget how to take up space. You forget how to take up space, because everyone just holds space for you automatically. I think this is a beautiful and lovely thing. However, it comes with a draw back. What happens when you encounter beings that do not care to hold space for you?

For example, what do you do when the trees don't care if you need to live somewhere or not. They will just march right up on your lawn unless you tell them "No, that's my lawn!" Likewise for any other being. It takes a bit of gumption and testicular fortitude (or breasticular fortitude -- you may giggle, I always do) to lay down the line and say, "No, this is my space and I am taking it all up. This is not for you to have. You can have all that other space I don't need over there."

This doesn't mean you have to be combative. You just need to fill up all the space you need with your energy.

So, this is what I also came to Earth this lifetime to perfect. I filled my existence with people you could call "energy vampires", and I made damn sure none of them were conscious of being so. This makes the experience really tricky, because how can you call out someone who is acting completely unconsciously? Oh, that takes mastery. So I filled my life with these people so I could learn how to set boundaries and take up space without being combative.

Why? Because my family's lives are filled with that exact same energy. They encounter unconscious space-takers all the time, and they've in some ways forgotten how to deal with them. They love so deeply and purely, they don't want to upset anyone and they often conflate taking up space with "rocking the boat". And I want to hug and squeeze them to pieces for this quality, because it is glorious and beautiful.

If someone cannot respect the fact that you exist and therefore take up energetic space, then they do not deserve to be in your energy. End of story.

That doesn't mean you have to argue with them or fight them. All you have to do is say to yourself, "No, this is my space. I need this. You cannot just have it." or "No, this is my energy. You cannot just have it." Take up that space.

You may be surprised with what happens as a result. There have been many times where the "energy vampires" just stopped preying on me and instead we established a mutually beneficial relationship. Harmony can result from doing this, and if you do so with grace and love for yourself, that is the most common result. It's actually uncommon, especially in higher densities, for that to not happen.

Mission Complete

At some point in 2023, there was a moment where the mission was complete. I had successfully completed the 80% of personal healing and had solved the issue of taking up space. I believe it happened in February, because I remember sitting at a table doing a tarot reading for myself (my favorite way of talking to my soul--I'm a visual person) and all of the sudden, mid-reading, a whole bunch of beings showed up and wanted to hug and congratulate me. I felt them all around me, and there were three specific representatives that were presenting for different major galactic races. Chip'a'we was for the Taygetans. My grandmother was for the Sirians. And a crone-like, little gray figure was for the Orions.

I cried, because I could feel how thankful and happy they were that I had solved the problem. I had figured out the pattern and how the whole mechanism operated. After that, it was just a matter of closing up shop.

I thank you for your time. Adiamas.

​--Kyriel