Inexplicably Emotional Scenes in Movies

Those times in a movie when you just get overwhelmed emotionally for reasons you cannot logically explain at the time.

Without spoiling overmuch, there's a scene in Spirited Away where Chihiro and Kohaku are flying through the air. Kohaku is in his dragon shape, and as Chihiro is riding him, she suddenly remembers his name. Kohaku breaks out of his dragon shape, name spell broken, and they both fall through the air as he remembers himself. This scene makes me cry every single time. Every. Single. Time.

Scenes from the Bourne series where Jason doesn't remember who he is, and then he does. That also gets me emotional.

In Inception where Mal is lost after being stuck in the unconscious and doesn't appear to know reality from dream, is another one of those emotional scenes. Where I cry at the sadness of being lost like that. And how many times has "You're waiting for a train" echoed in my head since I saw that movie? Sometimes more frequently than others.

This evening I watched Oblivion, which I have actually not seen. At least I don't think I have. I don't recognize the scenes. I decided to watch it, because out of curiosity I listened to the soundtrack, liked it, and felt like I was in the mood for a sci-fi movie. (I figured out the major plot twist 16:42 into the movie after I saw "Sally". "Sally's fake!" And it unfolded from there and I understood.)

Anyway, I reach the scene were Julia tells Jack she's his wife. I have to stop the movie and go have a cry about that. Not any ordinary cry. Big, giant sobs that go in and out like I'm trying to breathe but can't. And then I sat here for 10 minutes coughing like I'm drowning in the emotion. I can't even hear myself think. Big giant tornado out of nowhere emotion. It doesn't even have a name or a face or a label.

By the time I calm down, I wonder, "Am I upset because that sort of thing has happened? Am I like Jack? Do I already have somebody and I forgot that too?"

Is my sequence of events off? Timing off? Is there another rather large hole in my memory?

It's quite possible things are off. If I have errors in my data, or it's scrambled, or I put it in a box and said "Don't open this"...then it's actually quite likely things are off. Not possible, but likely. Especially as far as time is concerned. What year it is/isn't. How long it's been between events. How long somebody might have been having to watch me go through this and say nothing and do nothing.

(Oh, that burns me up. Making someone watch that with their hands tied. That's wrong.)

You know this same kind of explosion of emotion happened on Valentine's Day when that message came through from CIC about Mari getting all those offers and her saying "no". I cried like that then. I didn't say exactly what I was feeling at the time, but that's what I was feeling. Those same gasping, heaving sobs of an emotion that's unnameable. I wanted to say it was "relief", but it was much deeper than that. And The Golden Lion (who is Mari as herself, I know it) and I both at the same time have to go calm ourselves down because I know we both felt something similar at the same time.

I make no presumptions at this time as to the specifics. All I know is I'm very emotional and so frustrated I want to lob this laptop through my living room window. Because right now I cannot make sense of the sequence of things. It doesn't make any sense. I just don't have enough data yet. There's something I'm missing.

My heart says one thing. My mind says, "I don't remember that. How can that be?" But you don't react that way in a vacuum. Emotions don't emerge from "nowhere". They all come from something, and in these cases, it's going to be something unconscious stowed away from view. My heart is usually right anyway. I just like to have mind be on board, too.

Know what. I'm going to do what I do best. Sleep on it. Whenever I have a problem like this, if I throw it down into my unconscious mind and say, "Go find me a solution to this problem, please." I'll wake up the next day and if I don't have an answer then, I'll have it in a day or two more. It does me no good to try to answer these questions while I'm upset.

That's what I'll do.

I thank you for your time. Adiamas.

--Kyriel