In the Name of Transparency, Part 2

A journal entry for today, and recording some things for the sake of posterity. Since this is a record of my journey.

Saturday night, I did indeed go on the chat and ask for a witness. And I got one from Forest, who I think is another one of your handles, Mari. Your energy, but a masculine version of it. Still, your energy. Just like Lyran is still your energy but expressed as my personality? (Which is hilarious, because it still feels like I'm talking to myself sometimes.)

I told myself, "If I see Mari or Tori'el, they can be my witness." Because you both have been acting as such the entire time for me. And then you came on, and whomever was running CIC01 gave me a flash to go ahead, and I suddenly was so freaking nervous. I typed out my request for a witness, then shut my eyes just to hit enter. Then I copy-pasted as fast as I could before my ego could talk me out of any of it.

But after it was all said and done, I collapsed back against the couch, and remembered how to breathe.

For posterity, here is the statement:

I, Kyriel of Erra, am a Taygetan citizen currently in an immersion program. My body is asleep in the Temmeran facility in Toleka City.

My ship is the SS Kota. It's leaf-shaped, matte black with electric blue accent lighting on the sides and the engines. My seats have a red fox emblem on them. It's docked in Toleka City spaceport.

There is a laser gun in a black holster on a white table across the room. It's laying next to my uniform, black with gold trim and emblems identifying me as a Rank 3 general in the Taygetan military.

I'd get up and put these on, but I'm stuck in the astral and cannot make my body wake up. I don't have an Earth body as I walked out of it. Because of this, I legally classify myself as a step-down.

I am part of the astral unit, and am astral bodyguard to Queen Mari Swa I of Temmer. As I have been for previous queens both during and before immersion.

The immersion program is forcing my body to be asleep and my mind to run a simulation of Earth. I formally request extraction. Thank you. - General Kyriel of Erra

Meanwhile, I'm both excited and in a bit of a daydream. "Did I really just do that? I really just did that. Wow, I just said all that out loud with a mic drop." And then we went right into orientation, and I know it was orientation. I've worked at enough places to know what orientation smells like when I read its sultry sounds.

I enjoyed it, actually! Was very interesting, and I know it was important information you had to convey.

I even, for fun, imagined everything in the chat being projected on a screen as a video from 1972. Complete with VHS tape deterioration lines, audio from 1960s equipment, and music that's just a tad wonky because the vinyl record sat in the sun once. The narrator is the same guy they picked for every single 1970s nature documentary film ever (George Page and all his vocal clones).

And then imagined Forest as the narrator, me sitting at a desk, and Lyran also sitting at a desk next to me. And I'm sitting there gently kicking my legs like I do when I have to process a lot of data at once, and I'm in my happy "I'm learning stuff" place. Meanwhile, all the Spanish speaking people are like kids running down the hallway cutting up and there's a teacher shouting "Quiet!"

My mind is a fun place. That vision flickered for a few seconds off and on as you were talking. My soul making up title cards and introductions to each topic.

Sunday morning, I noticed somebody said "Looks like you're stuck with me now!" which I could feel was one of those statements used as a mirror to reflect something to me that you can't say directly to me. Because I feel that person is already a crew member.

Well, sounds like you won't be bored now! And I won't be bored. My goodness how I've been bored here. Resting, yes. Healing, yes. But...bored. Doing everything I can to keep my energy from stagnating. Looks like I won't be bored now! Yay!

Soul tells me we are in "hurry up and wait" mode. Get everything submitted, and then wait for the gears in the machine to grind through the documentation. But that's all right. Because I have experienced a justice system notorious for taking a very long time to process a case (in the middle of a SNAFU with their case management system) process my case in record time with no hiccups whatsoever. If it's meant to happen, because a whole bunch of people agreed to an event happening, then it will happen.

Somehow, someway, it'll happen. I noticed last night you suspected it would take a week. That's very quick! In my mind, I'm at Earth speed and thinking "Oh, it's gonna be 3 weeks or so." Thank you for giving me a rough timeline, though. I'll still proceed with whatever I'm doing here like what you said doesn't exist. Don't look at the waveform!

Oh, yes, side note. I'm glad Yazhi is back! I saw your clues for who was sitting at the CIC01 terminal. There's only one DJ that can make a party a party like you described. Only one. Welcome back, Yazhi! I'll keep that to myself for now, but I just wanted to note here that I noticed what you said and was grinning ear to ear.

In the meantime, the aquarium looks clearer today, and there's some interesting microfauna starting to form. I spotted a transparent limpet on the glass, and I think there might be a baby snail. There's a layer of biofilm on top of everything as well, which is good to see. Still no nitrate readings yet, but I see the plants that are supposed to be "slow growing" are opening up rather quickly and expanding their leaves. The little grass species in the front is already sending out its rhizomes. It may well be that I don't have any nitrate readings, because the plants are so damn happy they're eating it all!

Either way, I'll continue giving it ammonia doses (which is really just adding fish food to a tank with no fish so the fish food becomes the waste product). And see where I am at the end of the week.

I have decided the betta fish I pick out shall be an energetic representative of myself as the Big Blue Light Being. It doesn't have to be blue. It doesn't have to even be male. It just has to have the right energy. Soul will help me pick it out. I'm not sure why I feel I should pick on this basis, but something tells me I should. Bring a little of my pure soul essence into my vicinity as an observable form? Something like that.

It's name will be "Mi". As in "Do Re Mi". Mi is the E note.

I go camping tomorrow, but will be back in time for the premiere chat on Friday. It's a short trip with the intention of letting go of any resistance my ego has to what's about to change. I suspect that's why my lungs are so inflamed right now (sure, there was an external trigger, but this persistence is esoteric at this point). My ego is holding on for dear life and not letting me breathe in the next thing. Therefore, massive inflammation as my consciousness is in a state of internal conflict.

Even if I do not feel this conflict emotionally, it's still playing out in this body. Which means, it's a deep level conflict. Subconscious in nature. Maybe I can move it along, though.

I've been taking 4,000 mg of Vitamin C, thyme tea, and peppermint to try to calm my system down. That's why I went to get a supplement instead of just eating fruit. I'm going for a megadose for the inflammation. Just trying to get it to calm down during the day so I can relax.

Thank you for the Vitamin C recommendation by the way. "No one's ever died of Vitamin C poisoning." Soul: "Take twice what that bottle says."

Gotta keep my energy moving forward. Stagnating is a no-no right now.

I thank you for your time. I love you, starshine. Adiamas.

​--Kyriel