I Know Kung Fu

I had no idea what to title this, because this is a meandering post talking about martial arts and comparing lifetimes. So, let's go with tongue-and-cheek Matrix references.

This is a lighter topic. Martial arts and the times I get weirdly obsessed with it and moved by it. But also, at the end of this post, I make sense of it all regarding all of this dabbling in hobbies and interests.

When I was 14 on Earth, precisely when I was 14 on Earth, I went to my mother and told her, "I want a katana and to learn kenjutsu."

Naturally she said, "Katanas are dangerous! You'll hurt somebody! Why don't you learn taekwondo instead?"

To which I said, "No, it needs to be a sword. And taekwondo sucks. How about kung fu. I want to learn kung fu."

"Girls don't learn kung fu and they don't use swords. No one uses swords."

After which point I grouched up to my room and plotted how to get around this problem. My dad did his best. He helped me make a wooden sword from a branch that fell off a tree in the woods. He thought katanas were dangerous, too, but he could help me make something less terrifyingly sharp to train with.

And then I went to Anime Weekend Atlanta with my friends from high school, took money I'd saved up, and bought a "wall-hanger" katana (not sharpened, and for display only). I was very pleased with this and dabbled with practicing basic forms and slices.

What's funny about this is at 14 on Erra, I was learning kung fu and how to wield a katana. I've mentioned this in a video that my instructor would make a comment sometimes, "éàt'nììdioókaà". (And holy shit I remembered how to say that verbally first and then spell it! WOO!). He meant, "Get your mind out of your balls and your brain, and attend to the sword." I...had a tendency to daydream.

Then, when I was 18 on Earth, Avatar: The Last Airbender came out, and I became obsessed with this idea of chi and martial arts together. I saw the show, thought, "Yes, but, more like in Kill Bill with the Five Point Heart Explosion Technique." I had also watched Naruto, and by far my favorite two abilities were the guy who could attach his shadow to someone else and control them with it; and the ninja student who could shut down chi in somebody else's body by hitting the pressure points. Ty Lee could do that in Avatar as well (I like how she does it, *tap, poke, tap, whack* down they go!).

And while part of me thought Air Bending was the coolest form, as I've gotten older and re-watched the series, I've taken a shine to Fire Bending. Namely because the concept of using the fire of creation in the body and directing it. Also dancing with dragons, and the general style of Fire Bending in general. Reminds me of Shaolin style kung fu.

At this same age in Taygeta, I was taking classes in Toleka City regarding just these concepts. Using martial arts to control the movement of energy in one's body and another's body. At first, this was very much like a form of bending: Energy Bending using the chi to produce telekinetic effects in a hyper-focused manner. Then, I think there was a moment where I commanded somebody else's body. This wasn't done through a shadow, this was telepathic command in conjunction with martial arts. That was the first time I did it in the Taygeta lifetime.

Thankfully, instead of it spontaneously manifesting with my dog as happened on Earth, it spontaneously manifested in a class with a teacher present who had seen that ability before. He taught me how to control it, specifically in combat. And also how to become resistant to it.

On Earth, this memory showed up as fantasies of forcing a combatant to surrender by making their body follow my body. Or by freezing them in place. (That's what I was trained how to do.) And when I came to read Harry Potter and the part where Harry is put under the Imperious Curse and he learns how to resist and refuse it--I knew also that was something I was trained how to do.

(Which is why entities can only confuse the fuck out of me, and cannot actually tell me what to do. Perceptual doubt has been a weak point for a long time, but we are fixing that now. Thank you for your support here, Mari!)

In my late 20s on Erra, I went to visit a teacher who lived in the mountains. She was an expert on vortices and using them to energetically charge and cleanse a space. Her method used a type of circular dance to move the body around and around to open the vortex in the self, which opened the vortex in the space around you.

On Earth, I used the same concept with BaguaZhang circle walking meditations to open vortices in my first apartment complex at the same age. For some reason, doing it on Earth makes it more powerful. I guess because I'm breaking the Matrix to do it and the energetic condensation of Earth physicality causes anything that happens to be superpowered when it finally does break through.

(I have noticed Taygetans use somatic movement to command energy through all these memories today. Using the body as a directive tool for energy. Makes sense.)

Throughout this post, you'll notice that on Earth, I did a lot of dabbling.

This happened a lot where I'd get obsessed with an idea, and then dabble with it...then I'm suddenly done with it. It's confused the hell out of a lot of people around me. "Why don't you dedicate yourself to practice?" Because I'm not meant to. The whole point of dabbling in the thing is to "open the box" in my consciousness. That's all. It's just so I open the memory container and release more of myself into myself.

This is why I have done so many seemingly random things for short periods. Why I've tried on so many different habits, spiritual practices, exercise practices, hobbies. You could call that a disorder, but no. I'm in immersion. I'm trying to remember my way out of immersion. To do that, you have to open all the boxes of yourself. There are lots of boxes.

So, if you find yourself dabbling, it's very likely that's what you're doing. Opening boxes of yourself. In order to open that box, you have to take an action related to what's in that box.

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On a side note, I can breathe today! And I feel almost back to normal! Hurray!

I thank you for your time. Adiamas.

--Kyriel