How Wounds of the Heart Affect Your Field

Today I want to share in detail something that happened last night and what I've come to understand about it.

First off, there is so much going on inside of me that I lose track of all the things that need attending to. For example, while I did a lot of healing to my Earth body's heart (and therefore my astral self's heart), the wounds that were still in my Taygetan body's heart had not yet been healed. My astral body was in another physical vessel, and because it had not "touched" my Taygetan body until quite recently, those wounds were in...stasis. Not festering, but not healing. Just still there.

The primary wound on that heart was from Seraphel dying. So, let me share what I've understood about that.

Prior to welding back into my body, I first had to release his attachment to my astral self. And yes, it was an entity attachment. Not all attachments are negative, because not all entities attaching are negative. Sometimes, they just don't want to let you go and you don't want to let them go. Tragic. Makes for good movies. Makes for sad life experiences and bad habits.

Once I released him and got back into my body, well there's that wound on my heart from where he used to be in my life. Last night, while talking to Mari, we were talking about entities attachments, and she mentions confusion. And I think "I need to look at my field." Well, when I went to look, I saw a giant puckered scar in the wall of my field that was creating a vulnerability point. I wondered, "How did that get there?"

I realized the scar in my field was like a projection from my heart. Like a lantern projecting onto a wall, and the tiny design on the lantern becomes many feet large on the wall. That's what was happening. The wound on my heart from losing him had not been healed, so it made a huge vulnerability.

This vulnerability wasn't a problem before, because I wasn't in my physical body. I was off being a giant blue light being in the lower astral.

Unfortunately, where I'm "parked" in the astral is between a graveyard and a government building. (Jeez, Kyrie, can you choose better places to live?) This is an old graveyard with many old families present, many who lived during the Civil War when where I am was a military camp. The building I live in may well be placed right on top of... Well, let me go look and I'll tell you what was originally right where my butt is planted at this moment.

It was a wooden structure like a cabin made of pine trees that'd been cut down and not shaved of bark. So, hastily put together. This was where the quartermaster unit lived in the camp for the Confederate Army, and this unit was rather large because of the railroad that they built through this area to serve logistics during the war. There's a famous locomotive chase this town is known for during that time.

Anyway, the people who are dead in that graveyard from the Civil War are very likely men who died and did not know if their wives and children were okay back at home. Who are constantly looking for "news" of them. And here I come to this place with the opposite energy of being a woman who has lost a partner (and less recently a son). I'm a big shiny light, and that attracts these spirits. They see my light and they see the vulnerability, and they think, "She will know! She will understand! Help! I am lost! Help! Where is my wife? Where is my son? Where are they?"

So they try to attach. And because I am presently distracted with major changes to the rest of me (to the point of being forced to sleep just to manage everything everywhere all at once), I don't realize this is happening until they sink their energy into that vulnerability point. Which causes this mass wave of emotion, confusion, and telepathic communion. This feels like "temporally scrambled eggs" in the brain.

The only way to heal that vulnerability in the field is to heal the scar in my heart. Which is what I did last night in the chat. There are many ways to do that. I chose kintsugi, which is to fill the scar with gold energy and let it fuse with the rest of my energy. Much to my amusement, my heart didn't keep that gold filling, it turned into an electric blue light that was whole and unscarred. And the field it's producing is now seamless.

All right, so, that's been happening. Thank you Mari for protecting me and working with me through this. And for just being present while I do the work myself. That's true love right there. I hope I am able to do the same for you in return.

I thank you for your time. Adiamas.

--Kyriel