Difficult to Place Nostalgia

There's a particular type of music that I've listened to throughout my life that pulls me to a completely other world. The nostalgia is real, and the place is real, but I don't always know where it is.

This post was inspired by the following song: ​Fi's theme - Skyward Sword. Go give it a listen. It's instrumental (and instrumental).

It's the flute. The damn flute. I started listening to this and suddenly found myself awash in this nostalgic, far away feeling that was so deep I started to cry. It's not homesickness, but it is a type of longing.

I used to listen to Enya's music a lot, especially "May It Be", and the same thing would happen to me. In that case, it's how Enya's voice when applied with a reverb, creates the same flute-like sound. The same far away sound. Also the lyrics get me right in the heart, but I want to focus on sound more than words.

When I was a little girl, I'd sing like Enya in "May It Be". There is a place somewhere in this galaxy where they sing like this. I'm fairly certain it's in the Pleiades, and I'm fairly certain it's Celaeno. Maybe Alcyone itself. Anyway, it's a place with mountains, fields, forests, and quiet lakes. It's not Erra, which is similar, because there's more water. There's more water in this place, but it is temperate.

Celaeno... I asked my soul why this place in particular and why this nostalgia...

When Seraphel and I were incarnating in Sirius for a while, one lifetime there was an academy trip where we went as children to Celaeno. We were light blue amphibious beings, which is not the only Sirian species I've incarnated as, but it's definitely my favorite. The people on Celaeno are like cousins to the blue Sirians. So, we went to see our cousins and learn from them. I remember it was my first lifetime in many lifetimes in a row seeing forests and mountains again. Where we'd been incarnating, it was mostly flat coastal plains all over the planet.

I remember stepping down the ramp of the ship and seeing white on the mountain tops. And feeling cold. It was chilly there!

Anyway, one of the things that captivated me about that time was the music. The way it always sounded like someone longing for someplace faraway they could never get to again. I liked that. During that trip, Seraphel and I made up a song together. This was before the age where you forget your connection to Source for a little bit so you can learn how to grow into an adult being. It was right before that. The song was about all the places we've been and all the places we'd yet to see, and how we'd go see them all together. It was written in a Sirian dialect, and was sung that way too.

When I incarnated on Earth this lifetime, I brought the song with me. I just forgot what it all meant. Except... I remembered Celaeno where we wrote it, even if I didn't know the name of the place I was envisioning at the time. But I'd sit in my backyard on Earth and sing that song and think of this place with fields, mountains, forests, and crisp chilly air. I used to think it was somewhere in Ireland or Scotland, but no, it was a whole other planet.

Well, I'm having a bit of a weepy day anyway. Part of it is the weather outside. Part of it is life circumstances. Part of it the music. Part of it is hormones as I'm close to my cycle. It's a messy mixture.

I thank you for your time. Adiamas.

​--Kyriel