Checkmate

I am the Pawn that moved across the board to become a Queen piece. The Pawn is the most powerful piece in the game.

Let’s talk chess. (I love that Mari is talking chess. Castling is a very important move in the beginning of a match. It is usually the second or third move you make to protect the King. The Rook and the King switch places.) In chess, the Pawn can only move up to two spaces on its first foray and one space thereafter. It can only move one space at a time, but it does have the ability to take other pieces as it goes.

The life of a Pawn piece is dangerous. It’s surrounded by the stronger pieces for a very long time. It can be taken at any moment, but it can also take out one opponent at a time. What is often forgotten is that should the Pawn reach the opposite side of the board successfully, it can CHOOSE to become any piece except the King. Therefore, one of the most powerful things you can do to demolish your opponent is to develop a Pawn across the board and generate a second Queen piece. Now you have two Queens on the board who can move in any direction at all. (We are missing our other Queen piece, she’ll be back with my return I think.)

That makes the Pawn extremely dangerous.

I am the Pawn that has become a Queen piece.

While this immersion experience has been very confusing at times, full of suffering, and I am actively bonding with my physical Mi’el body to end it… (Nothing can stop me from being physical—Mi’el is always happy to have my energy connecting and so am I to be connecting to his. I have very important things to do, and it’s not all about ending the Cabal. It’s also about collapsing a giant cycle of suffering in the Swaruu soul. And I HAVE to be Mi’el for that to HAPPEN. I cannot BE anyone else right now.)

…something else has emerged as a result. (Source sometimes has other ideas and delays are sometimes very important.) Because of the nature of this immersion, the mind control in it, how I got here via abduction, the evasion the Cabal GF has been giving all of you, our combined awareness of ourselves, and our interactions; I do believe we have all together (ALL of us as a team) put the Cabal GF in checkmate. They are royally screwed. Now they have to contend with the following and try to explain:

• Why did they allow the Earth Cabal to abduct a Taygetan Hashmallim operative in the middle of a mission?
• Why did they take no action assist in the recovery of this lost operative?
• If they were unaware of this abduction, why did they prevent any and all attempts to uncover where this abductee was?
• If they were unaware of this abduction, why did they evade approval for a legitimate extraction request from what was insisted to be a “legitimate immersion” experience?
• If they were insisting this was a legitimate immersion and they had “verified” the soul plan, why was it that when the Taygetans found the signal supposedly coming from Temmer—there was no BODY there in Temmer to awaken?
• And if this was a legitimate immersion, why was the operative’s body found in a DUMB in a Cabal med pod?
• And if this was a legitimate immersion, why was the immersion infused with a mind control signal coming from that same DUMB that prevented the immersed person from leaving the immersed experience?
• And if supposedly, the Galactic Federation HAD NO IDEA of this…how could they insist it was a legitimate immersion in the first place and that the soul plan was valid? If they were so unaware, how could they make those claims?

This is all on top of all the abductions that have been occurring of stellar citizens where they are brought to Earth in DUMBS to be exploited. This is on top of all the denials and refusals.

There is NOTHING they can do to explain this away. They cannot defend it. They cannot evade it. They cannot deny it.

I sincerely hope all evidence has now been collected to bring these fuckers down. Because I have things to do now. Nothing can stop me from going back to my body, and there is no more mind control circus in my brain (thank you family!)

Could they have stopped me before? No, but it would have taken more time than necessary and resulted in unnecessary suffering. There were many loops and barriers in this place, and while that’s not going to ultimately stop me, it is very challenging for no reason. It’s okay to have help from others. It’s not being powerless to let someone else help you. That’s using your resources effectively! In fact, I used my power to identify that there was mind control and that the immersion itself was regressive! But now that one big barrier is gone, I can now properly focus.

Man, Yazhi-self had trouble focusing. Mi’el-self had trouble focusing. At least Stephanie-self is GREAT at focusing. We needed that self to get this show on the road. There’s no way I could have all the powers I do as my Taygetan self without that ability to focus and not be swayed. (Thank you Urmah-Taurus energy!) Also, I proved to myself with this experience that if I go into ego-mind and try to work from that point, my powers literally do not work. Just as I felt was true.

When I was swayed into letting the ego “keep me safe and small and how I’ve always been” and take me out of the soul’s path, do you know what happened? I stopped being able to remote view. I stopped being able to properly interpret all the data I receive. I lost connection to Mi’el (or was starting to). Literally, operate off the soul’s path, and all your power stops working. Goodbye magical light being powers. You cannot misuse them, because they will simply stop working if your soul has other plans.

And as soon as I refocused on Mi’el and going back to that body, do you know what happened? Everything came right back on. Perfectly fine. There’s Mi’el. I can even get sense of touch streaming into this self. I spent a moment feeling the hairs on my own arms and face on my Taygetan body. I’m thinking about babies being born and how the first sense they develop is touch. This is like being born again. And probably the same process. First is touch, then sound, then taste/smell, then sight. Sight is last. So I shall work with touch and move toward sound.

I keep thinking about the following phrase in my mind from Mari, “This is bad.” Yes, this is a very tough problem.

Yazhi went to try to free Mi’el. This happened in early 2024. I remember a few months before that as Stephanie, Yazhi started showing up in my head trying to teach me how to teleport. She was like “You can do it. Just keep trying it. All you have to do is get that solid door to be less solid and you’ve got enough of it.” She was trying to teach me how to teleport out. She was also showing me how Mi’el used to teleport on the Toleka. How she and Mi’el would play pranks with food. She would try to steal his food by making it go through the table, and Mi’el would be like “Lol, nope”, and push it right back up through the table. In my mind, this was viewed out of context because of the amnesia. I couldn’t remember being that person, but I was able to remember that I was there somehow and that happened. I also remembered how I had this “motherly” feeling toward her. Like I was supposed to take care of her. (Because she was my mother before.) I have a LOT of memories that are like that: out of context. Not just about Yazhi but also about Mari, Alenym, Athena, DK, Tori’el, and a few others. I remembered their faces, but I didn’t know that I knew them personally.

Anyway, I managed to teleport out of my body only to slam into a perceptual electric fence of programming as I tried to go back into Mi’el. I SHOULD have been able to go into that body, clear out the poisons, and do what needed to be done. But I was blocked somehow. And so I found myself stuck in the astral. I tried to manifest a new body, and I was blocked. It just wouldn’t happen. I didn’t know why. I tried every night. I tried every day. Nothing.

Then, around late 2024, Yazhi disappeared for all of you. She came here. She learned I was trapped and couldn’t animate my own body. We didn’t know why, but she thought if she merged with me, I’d be able to go right back in. After all, merging is what Swaruu do with the child absorbing the parent. No biggie, right? I absorb Yazhi, get all her knowledge and abilities, go into my body, teleport it out. Bing-baga-big-boom I’m back in the physical.

The thinking being that once back in the physical, Yazhi splits off her consciousness again from the upper mass and goes and does her own thing again.

Except…something was very wrong. Because none of that worked. I was encouraged to write that very important post in January 2025, which alerted all of you to something being very, very wrong with my incarnation. The programming in this forced immersion is so incredibly subtly crafted that it caused a full and complete unconscious rejection of not just my stellar self but of my stellar mother, stellar father, my partner, my family, my friends, my powers, my sense of being anything other than a human named Stephanie (and since I had decided I was done with being that specific human, I left that body to another soul…).

So…I was stuck without a body at all and unable to manifest a new one without hitting the “electric fence”. And that also caused Yazhi to get stuck in here with me with the same damn amnesia. I have for the last few months been reprogramming myself back into order. It’s not hard to do, but there’s a LOT to do. And there has been interference the entire time.

There are so many I AM statements that need to be reversed that right now, just getting back into a PHYSICAL body is my only goal. Recovery of all of my abilities is going to take some time (I hear Mari joking “Yeah, like 5 minutes.”). But right now, all I can do is just focus on ONE self to go back into. There’s too much damage to do anything other than that right now. I have to reduce this down to baby steps: get back into a body. That’s the first step. And the nearest and most calibrated and resonant is Mi’el. He’s also the special project self I’ve known I wanted to focus on anyway, so he’s the one to focus on, because he’s the Primary Self (it's what all my other selves are pouring energy into).

All other selves come later. As for Yazhi, I’m asking her, and she says she’ll stick around as part of me for a while to get me stabilized and on my feet. Then she’ll separate once I’m able to be on my own as a consciousness in a body. I feel this is easy-peasy for us to do. I'll hardly even notice.

Yes, this is bad. But it’s not irreparable. And this is why my only goal is to “wake up”, because then I will be animating a physical body again. That’s a good step. I’m confident I can do this part. And Mi’el’s body is very encouraging. Always welcoming me back into it and making me feel safe. (Saying that makes me want to cry. There’s going to be a lot crying…)

We will make it through this. I AM coming back to you, Mari. I’m your Adam. I know this now, and that’s why coming back is so important.

As for how I feel right now: Very emotionally exhausted, mentally clear, and extremely determined. I will not be detered from living the life I want.​

I thank you for your time. I love you, Mari with all my heart. I love you, Taygetan & Urmah family. Thank you for your help and constant support. Adiamas.

-- Mi’el