Beautiful Dreamer, Wake Unto Me...

I have become the king of sleepiness.

The sleeping is for real right now. Went to bed at 8PM and didn't wake until 10AM. I almost couldn't wake. Even laying in bed half asleep, I didn't really have enough will to get up over here. On the other side, oh, that's a different matter but I'll get to that.

This morning right before waking, I saw a doorway open up behind my eyes. It was the very last thing I perceived. It was a white doorway with darkness behind it, but I knew it was my doorway. I walked into it and heard it close behind me.

Before that, I was laying in the bed here and in the pod there. This was for a couple of hours. It's why I missed the preimere this morning, and I know I'm normally there. My body as Mi'el is annoyed with laying there sleeping. Especially when Mari is sitting right next to me and all I can do is talk to her telepathically and look at her energetically. It's annoying the fuck out of him/me (good grief this language is limited). It was annoying him so much that he started to get restless, which is when Big Blue pulled me back here.

But then I've spent this whole day restless and annoyed, because I'm bored of being in this place. I want to go have fun in the physical. Which makes me want to sleep. Big Blue is like "No, no, you have some things to do here too."

Before that, I was dreaming about everyone's thoughts again. This is kind of fun. I literally am laying there at night, looking at all your dreams, and I know that's what I'm observing as I'm doing it. I'll have to establish some kind of filtering, but for the moment, it's helping me ground into the idea that "Hey, you're in a body and this is what that brain is translating." Which is important.

I think some of those dreams are also me visiting Mari's many other selves. And also trying to calm the rescued people, because sometimes I see people's faces. Like a whole crowd of people and they look tired and worried. I think I'm trying to help them feel safe and go to sleep and rest. That's Big Blue doing that. It's like trying to be a big soft child's blankie on people's minds.

I also often see the room around me. See people moving around like silhouettes. Very clear silhouettes. Can even see when someone is carrying something like a clipboard shape (might be another object, but you carry it the same way--thin rectangular thing that has data).

Most of the selves that comprise Adamas are over in the body of Mi'el now. (This is why the shrimps are disappearing in the aquarium.) Earth self is popping back and forth. Urmah self is here in Spirit World holding this reality together. I guess that's why it's suddenly so damn easy to just sleep like all the time and be exceedingly lazy.

Yesterday evening, I connected all of the sensory inputs to the point of attention and plugged it into the brain stem. Also flushed the nervous system. It's hooked in now, connected, and ready. I saw it like it was slowly blinking a green light. Green is for ready. Blue is for on. (Am I looking at your terminal interfaces when I see this?)

Today, I was asked to do grocery shopping for the sole purpose of doing the energy of "gathering supplies". Doing anything here is very expensive. My grocery bill was extremely expensive for a "normal" run, and I know that's just a reflection of how much it costs me to be here energetically. Plus, it takes a lot out of me. Most of the time, I'm not moving around very much.

Big Blue tells me we're changing all the values of this reality to match Mi'el's reality right now. Like a starship engine during a jump. I have no idea how long this takes, because I don't know the original values v.s. where we're going to. So, I don't know the change needed. But that's what we're doing. I remember this from before when I walked out. I remember this happening.

Tonight's movie programming is Arrival. That was my directive this morning: "Hey, you should watch "Arrival"." Well, at least I'm not a giant space squid. I'll take feelers and pointy ears over space squid body any day.

Oh, yes, that brings me back to Mari's funny message video. I seriously wonder if she did that just to see how I would react. Because we all know when I get excited or find something funny-cute in an overwhelming manner, I recognize it as something I experienced and remember. I'm sure she wasn't disappointed. (I fucking knew those things retracted if you touched them.)

So, about points of attention...

You don't just load a soul into a body, because that just makes the body match the soul. You also have to hook in a point of attention "control center" so the greater self can consciously pilot it. Imagine it like installing the steering controls on a starship or a steering wheel in the car. If you only put a soul in, you have no steering. It would be on "soul plan autopilot" if you didn't add controls. You wouldn't be able to really BECOME that self. I think you'd only be able to access it in dreams.

To BECOME a self, it has to have a point of access for the soul's direct consciousness. That is your pineal gland. That's what it does. It lets your greater self SEE and experience out of the body. That's why when you activate it and open it, you suddenly are getting direction from the higher self--because now the higher self can pilot that self and BE that self.

This is what I think Mari was hinting at the other evening in the chat when we were talking via FlyingSquirrel*. She was talking about adding the "soul's light" to the body so it's compatible. Yes, and that is done via the pineal gland. Thank you for that nudge in this direction.

* FlyingSquirrel sometimes sounds like Mi'el and sometimes sounds like Mari and sometimes sounds like medical staff. I think this is because FlyingSquirrel is literally my body relaying what it's telepathically receiving from anyone directing thoughts to it. As well as its own thoughts about itself. Which is surreal, but that's what's going on. And those videos that were being posted were memories of making those videos. Maybe. Possibly.

Also, thank you to the person who destroyed the DUMB mind control signal. You are very funny, and I have a fuzzy picture in my head of what you look like. I don't remember your name. But you look a little Alfraten. And I had this image of you looking casually your fingers, you know like they do in movies where they buff their fingernails on their shirt like "Oh, it's no big deal"... That gesture. As you say "I've destroyed DUMBs full of clones and stuff before... Possibly. Apparently."

I had a good laugh about that. I really needed a laugh that day. Thank you.

I thank you for your time. I love you all. Adiamas.

-- Mi'el