Balancing Masculine and Feminine Energies as a Feminine

This should be an interesting subject, I hope. Maybe illuminating for you as well as for me. I want to talk about balancing internal masculine and feminine energies from the perspective of being a feminine person.

​It’s funny. I started thinking about this subject this morning, then forgot about it. Then thought about it. Then forgot about it. It’s been hard to connect into, and I suppose that has a little bit to do with the difficulty of balancing doing with being.

But I’m sitting down now to write it, and it’s in my forebrain, so off we go before it disappears again!

One of the trickiest balancing acts you’ll ever do, especially after coming from Earth, is to balance your inner masculine’s desire to do with your inner feminine’s desire to be.

If you’re already a masculine person, this challenge will present differently than I shall describe. For you, my dear masculines, your challenge is to learn how to open to sensing the energetic environment as you act and in the process of acting. Rather like learning how to feel the current around you as you are manually piloting a ship.

As a feminine, my challenge in particular has been to learn how to wait, receive, and then act. Like a hunter in a blind waiting for the animal to present itself.

Earth society trains feminines to think they need to be masculine in their manifesting. But it’s not even the enlightened version of masculine energy. It’s distorted masculine energy to boot. Earth society teaches everyone that in order to achieve your goal, you must force, push, and control to get the outcome. In Third Density, this is actually functional, because manifestations are so slow.

In truth, you don’t have to push so hard or force so much or even control much of anything.

So, much of my un-training has been about learning to wait, receive, and then act.

Wait patiently for the energies to align, and use my natural feminine ability to sense energies to feel for that alignment.

Open to receive the opportunity as it presents itself to me of its own volition and free will.

Act with minimal force, pushing, or control…with even minimal effort at all, to seize the opportunity and ride the energy of the opportunity forward.

When I do this correctly, I can manifest literally anything with very little effort and stress. When I act at the correct moment, the momentum of the energies that are already in alignment just glide me forward through the eye of the needle and all the sudden, I have quantum leaped somewhere new.

The hard part is trusting in the waiting. Trusting that there is no such thing as time. Trusting that my soul and Source already know all the details of what is occurring around me—already know whatever external factors are at play—and will align everything just right for minimal effort.

And knowing when to act is also important. Knowing when the opportunity is here is important. I can tell you what it feels like when the opportunity isn’t there and I am acting too quickly and putting the cart in front of the horse. It will feel like that moment when you’re a child, running through the house, and you run face-first into the closed glass door leading outside. That’s what it feels like. That nosebleed-inducing smack into the glass and subsequent hard stop as you fall on your butt as you try not to feel like an idiot. (Full disclosure, I have done this as an adult once or twice.)

But that’s the balance. The inner masculine in a feminine person is not the pilot of the ship. He’s the hunter in the blind. Just like the inner feminine in a masculine person is not the open portal of reception. She’s the navigation system on the ship.

Yet sometimes, my inner masculine thinks we’re ship pilots and we shall conduct our reality as such. No, masculine self, we are not in that shape this time. This is the shape of the hunter in the blind, so quit wanting to go track down the prey and wait! Ah, but he says, “Tracking is the fun part. Waiting is boring.” Then let us build a Rube Goldberg Machine trap, and you’ll be entertained watching the long chain of perfectly executed sequences go off.

Still. Waiting is difficult for me. I keep expecting reality to move faster than it does, because I know it moves faster than it does. Because I can see the energies moving around and I know exactly what’s coming next, but not how to get there. There’s a door, a portal, that is the prey to present itself, and I do not know how it steps into the clearing. I know it will, because I can sense it in the woods around me, smell it, hear it, even see it. I just have no idea where it comes out of those woods… And this drives my inner masculine to tears with boredom and frustration.

So, I build my little Rube Goldberg Machine trap in the meantime and keep myself entertained.

I thank you for your time. Adiamas.

—Kyriel