0 Minutes to Midnight

Today all those downloads are settling in. I am very tired, but have a decent grasp of the situation. Mostly, I want to share the visions I had.

I went to bed early, which is unusual for me and I knew it would mean I'd be waking up off and on during the night. Still, I was so very exhausted from that eruption of energy. Thankfully, I have somehow woken up this morning fairly rested all things considered, though with a short temper for foolishness from anybody. Today is not a day to ask for my energy.

Before bed, I sat with my eyes closed, feeling around for all the timelines. I cut them off one by one, pulling my energy back to me. It was like unmooring a boat. The only one I left attached is the one I have chosen, and that is attached to the bow like a towline. So much energy came pouring back into me, and I saw around me nothing but void darkness. No space.

I was thinking about the snare, and how I'm like a fox with my foot caught in a trap. Or I was. I was like a fox caught in a trap. I think Mari freed me? That was the black thing on my foot? Anyway, I saw how I've been. A fox with its foot caught in a trap, stuck in place, and like any good magic fox, I can make things to hide myself. Which is what I did.

Anyway, as I fell asleep, I immediately saw this Construct as it exists in the void. A little bubble of Earth--a tiny snow globe surrounded by a larger dome of energy. And around the dome of energy circled things. Shadows. Darkness moving in darkness. Watchers. Waiters. Somehow my little snow globe makes me invisible to the things outside. It's how I'm hiding here. They think it's Earth they're looking at and not me, so it confuses them. If I were to drop the energy dome, they'd all have at me. Hence periodically battering it.

Then, I saw myself as something like a Japanese dragon. A giant, electrified, blue serpent-dragon coiled under the dome. I am too big for the dome, and I'm pushing against it, thrashing around like a snake put under a bowl. I can hear myself roaring in frustration.

I became something else. I turned into a humanoid shape of electricity, and I grew impossibly tall. I pushed up against the dome and pushed it outward to make it bigger. The sound I make is like some kind of strange undersea whale-dragon-creature. Well, I ​sound an awful lot like Godzilla here. As I pressed the ends of my arms--I don't have hands how weird--against it, I begin to emit a pulse of energy. It was enough to shake the ground and shove all the watchers away. All that was around me was just empty "ground". It looked like dried lava. With them gone, I cracked a hole in the dome, put a beacon on top, and made sure it was visible only in the upper astral layers. Then I closed up the dome and shrank back down to myself and passed out asleep.

There were other visions throughout the night. What I look like when I energetically visit someone. What I am but they cannot see, yet they can feel me there. Alien indeed.

All things considered, I feel better than yesterday. I feel better having been able to at least see my surroundings outside of here. Somehow that is especially reassuring. I titled this post "0 Minutes to Midnight", because that's where my soul says we are. We have clicked over. As for what to do now? Rest. Integrate. That was a lot.

I thank you for your time. Adiamas.

--Kyriel